And I Wander

The birds chirp at this side of the world. :)


This is how we waste our time as a family. Haha! But really, I recently realized how time flies so fast. My daughter is now 6 years old. It seemed only yesterday that she was just this tiny human running around the house and I could just scoop her up right away. Now, she runs like a deer! She runs so fast I couldn’t keep up.

And then, I rediscovered a love for creating videos (I took this up in college, but turned my back on it when I pursued dance). I rehauled my Youtube channel and decided to create videos with my daughter (& occasionally with my husband). It is not so much as being a Youtuber and everything that comes with it. It’s more of just enjoying the shooting, creating scripts, editing, dancing, and sharing each of our projects to our families & friends around the world. I realized that this thing that we do is such a blessing as it made time move slow because it provided us every opportunity to bond as a family. We’ve discovered things about each other, and personally, it made me appreciate what a wonderful talented daughter I have, and how supportive my husband (Spiderman) is.

And so I present to you the latest video that we did. We really liked Taylor Swift’s “Shake It Off” music video because aside from its message, we liked how it featured different styles of dance. Achilla’s toys also made cameos here: Angeline Ballerina, bboy Mickey Mouse, Raggedy Ann, the Unicorns… and of course my husband, Spiderman. ;)) Enjoy!

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Breathing life into this dying art of letterwriting.

So glad I’m able to have Tala experience writing and airmailing letters to daddy who’s away for 2 months… and without skype/text messaging and with only a few sporadic phone calls, this is our only regular means of communication. 🙂

I may be tech-savvy but I am really old school. I like the old ways. I love writing. I love handwritten notes or letters. I love giving and receiving folded notes or mailed letters. Nothing beats the way thoughts & feelings are shared and received through handwritten words. There’s something intimate and personal about it. There are things you cannot express through spoken words that can only be thoughtfully poured out on a piece of paper… and there are things too that are not rightfully expressed through typed words because, believe it or not, your handwriting says a lot about you and about your mood at the moment.

It’s so sad to realize that in the future, there may be kids who will never get to experience this. It’s bad that personal interactions are slowly diminishing, it’s worse because kids now value convenience and instant gratification. They would rather LOL than really laugh out loud. It’s a different world out there now. 😦

Anyway, I resolve to keep this art. I will keep on sending airmails to my husband and daughter even if we are together. I will keep on writing notes on stickies if I just want to say how much I love them, or just let them know that I thought of them… because I believe these can also be a testament of sorts to who and what we are… little pieces of memories of how we were so open, joyful, vulnerable, passionate and loving at a particular moment… that we took time to immortalize it… And then these papers will be kept in a safe box and not in cyberspace or a cellphone SD card.

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God spoke to me today through ptr. Insong’s message at church. Last Friday, I lost a 6week fetus from my womb. According to studies, 10-25% of pregnancies result in miscarriage. Where I am, it is normal. The shock I felt upon seeing bright red blood coming from me that morning was only a statistic. It happens. Move one.

How heartless.

The baby was 34 weeks away from being born and being held in my arms. People can say it is better than losing the baby just before delivery. Or even after… But all the same, it was painful. Those weeks of anticipation and dreaming and planning… all lost.

But I clung on to God, and in His grace and glory, I am able to accept what happened. And through this morning’s message, I was reassured that the pain I felt is never comparable to the joy that is in store for me and my family. In God’s embrace I rest. Instead of feeling defeated, I will rejoice for his grander plan.

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After telling my 5yo daughter of what happened, she gave me a pat on the back and said, “Ok lang mommy andito naman ako para sayo saka kay daddy.” (It’s ok mommy, I’m here for you and for daddy)

Thank you Lord for this beautiful and smart daughter. I know someday you will grant her wish to be an “Ate” (older sister). In Your time.

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I never really meant to post this. But God gave me a burden to share his message… that He is really bigger than all our problems. This is not about me, my pain, my loss. This is about His faithfulness and His promises.

And I’m actually doing ok now. Excited even for His plans.

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Being in the #workforce has never been part of what I have dreamed to do. But since all circumstances had lead me here, working 9-5 has, in some ways, provided comfort; that it anchored this wild careless spirit to this #thing that if you really look at a different angle, becomes a springboard to another #dream that I can pursue til my old age. And it’s called #family. Depends on which one you want to assign it to, “family” can be the “thing” or the “dream” or both.

I guess this marks, officially, the next chapter of my life. The last 13 years were spent wholeheartedly in dance. It’s now time to close the book. I was apprehensive about retiring for the last 3 years. It has been long overdue. So with great gusto, I now welcome a new life ahead of me.

But of course, dance will trinkle in once in a while. You never forget your first love. 😉

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So yeah I am blessed too to have this hour everyday, where I can take a break from the four walls of my stressful (but enjoyable) job and just walk around and bask in the rays of the sun. And think. Or take photos. Or do #selfie shots.

And being in the sun makes me remember where I came from. #manila #islandgirl #heliophile



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(REPOST) Growing up without a cell phone

If you are 36, or older, you might think this is hilarious!

When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tears with their tedious diatribes about how hard things were. When they were growing up; what with walking twenty-five miles to school every morning…. Uphill… Barefoot… BOTH ways…yadda, yadda, yadda…

And I remember promising myself that when I grew up, there was no way in hell I was going to lay a bunch of crap like that on my kids about how hard I had it and how easy they’ve got it!

But now that I’m over the ripe old age of forty, I can’t help but look around and notice the youth of today. You’ve got it so easy! I mean, compared to my childhood, you live in a damn Utopia! And I hate to say it, but you kids today, you don’t know how good you’ve got it!

1) I mean, when I was a kid we didn’t have the Internet. If we wanted to know something, we had to go to the damn library and look it up ourselves, in the card catalog!!

2) There was no email!! We had to actually write somebody a letter – with a pen! Then you had to walk all the way across the street and put it in the mailbox, and it would take like a week to get there! Stamps were 10 cents!

3) Child Protective Services didn’t care if our parents beat us. As a matter of fact, the parents of all my friends also had permission to kick our ass! Nowhere was safe!

4) There were no MP3’s or Napsters or iTunes! If you wanted to steal music, you had to hitchhike to the record store and shoplift it yourself!

5) Or you had to wait around all day to tape it off the radio, and the DJ would usually talk over the beginning and @#*% it all up! There were no CD players! We had tape decks in our car. We’d play our favorite tape and “eject” it when finished, and then the tape would come undone rendering it useless. Cause, hey, that’s how we rolled, Baby! Dig?

6) We didn’t have fancy crap like Call Waiting! If you were on the phone and somebody else called, they got a busy signal, that’s it!

7) There weren’t any freakin’ cell phones either. If you left the house, you just didn’t make a damn call or receive one. You actually had to be out of touch with your “friends”. OH MY GOSH !!! Think of the horror… not being in touch with someone 24/7!!! And then there’s TEXTING. Yeah, right. Please! You kids have no idea how annoying you are.

8) And we didn’t have fancy Caller ID either! When the phone rang, you had no idea who it was! It could be your school, your parents, your boss, your bookie, your drug dealer, the collection agent… you just didn’t know!!! You had to pick it up and take your chances, mister!

9) We didn’t have any fancy PlayStation or Xbox video games with high-resolution 3-D graphics! We had the Atari 2600! With games like ‘Space Invaders’ and ‘Asteroids’. Your screen guy was a little square! You actually had to use your imagination!!! And there were no multiple levels or screens, it was just one screen.. Forever! And you could never win. The game just kept getting harder and harder and faster and faster until you died! Just like LIFE!

10) You had to use a little book called a TV Guide to find out what was on! You were screwed when it came to channel surfing! You had to get off your ass and walk over to the TV to change the channel!!! NO REMOTES!!! Oh, no, what’s the world coming to?!?!

11) There was no Cartoon Network either! You could only get cartoons on Saturday Morning. Do you hear what I’m saying? We had to wait ALL WEEK for cartoons, you spoiled little rat-bastards!

12) And we didn’t have microwaves. If we wanted to heat something up, we had to use the stove! Imagine that!

13) And our parents told us to stay outside and play… all day long. Oh, no, no electronics to soothe and comfort. And if you came back inside… you were doing chores!And car seats – oh, please! Mom threw you in the back seat and you hung on. If you were lucky, you got the “safety arm” across the chest at the last moment if she had to stop suddenly, and if your head hit the dashboard, well that was your fault for calling “shot gun” in the first place!

See! That’s exactly what I’m talking about! You kids today have got it too easy. You’re spoiled rotten! You guys wouldn’t have lasted five minutes back in 1970 or any time before!

The Over 40 Crowd

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Same sentiments like in some of my previous blogs. I may be tech-savvy (meaning I can well adapt to changing times), but I still want the good old days.

And so, as much as I can, I try to raise Achilla up with our old ways and values. She’s 4 years old now but she doesn’t know how to turn on the TV or computer. She knows how to use them though, just not to turn them on and then giving her the chance to be a lazy-assed couch potato all day. And so she spends most of her day writing and drawing using pads, pencils & crayons. She likes doing art and crafts. And lately, being so OC about the way her Lego princess castle was supposed to be built, she has learned that she could actually set all the pieces apart and put them back together in different ways as if renovating it.

Yes she spends a lot of time exploring her creativity and imagination. There are only a few times I let her use my android phone or let her watch cartoons on TV. Of course since she was born in the new age, she should be able to adapt.

Sigh. I miss the good old days of love letters, library, patintero, flowers & paintings, etc. Sana maexperience ni Achilla ang mga ito… Those days where effort was so much rewarded. And so much fullfilling

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Last year, there was this thing I do with Google map after I found out how awesome it is: it’s called “virtual traveling.” You know how now you can type any address and Google map brings you there? As in right there on the street, in front of a building or a house. Grabe. I would virtually travel, almost like by foot to Japan, Italy, Rome, and different cities in America. Try going to Japan, & go to those secluded areas na parang probinsya nila, you’d feel so eerie, like you’re in a ghost movie or something, haha!

Sometimes too, when wanderlust hits me, but time & money won’t allow me, I’d Google countries I’d want to go to someday, and lately I’d go to Pinterest/Cool Hunter to feast my eyes on beautiful photos of places around the world. These are some of my favorites:

Keukenhof Gardens – Netherlands. Trees, flowers & a body of water. My dream backyard.

(photo from The Cool Hunter)

Riomaggiore, Italy. The density & the organized chaos calms me.

(photo from Pinterest)

Bora Bora. My dream honeymoon destination.

(photo from the internet)

Skaftafeli – Iceland. Ok siguro mag skateboard dito. Hahaha!

Preachers Rock, Preikestolen, Norway. Yes I would love to read a book, or do my nothingbox here.

(photo from The Cool Hunter)

Hamilton Pool: Nature reserve formed by thousands of years of water erosion that created a natural pool collapsed grotto and canyon. Lovely.

(photo from Pinterest)

Gorges de Lareuase III. Gorgeous eh?

(photo from Pinterest)

Whitehaven Beach, Australia. Ooooh yeah.

(photo from Pinterest)

I’ve always want to do this! Tapos talon (paraglide). Woooooh!

(photo from Pinterest)

The thing about traveling though… the image that you’d see of a particular place is not the same as when you are in it. Like if you’d look at that beach from Australia from a plane, or from skydiving, it’d give you a different feel than if you are basking in the sun in it…. right? Sometimes we’d go to a place because we’ve seen how beautiful & colorful it is from a magazine or a book or the internet. But when we get there, we’d be disappointed at how pale it is in real life. Because real life does not do saturations or contrasts or lomo, or whatever tweaks photoshop does to a picture! I know people who’ve experienced this. They go to Santorini and they’d be like, “Hmp parang Tagaytay lang e (It’s just like Tagaytay).” Or they go to this secluded beach in Florida and say, “It was more beautiful in the pictures,” and then they’d upload photos of themselves in it after fixing up the colors to match what they’ve seen in the ads. I’ve experienced the same thing with the Bellarocca Island. It was more attractive in the pictures. But it was still breathtaking from some angles. 🙂 But then, as I’d always say, it’s not really the place you’re going to, how opulent or ghetto, or high class or dingy it is. It is the company that you have that would make traveling memorable.

Like this travel that we had at the Catalina Island last weekend. It was cloudy & gloomy during most parts of the day. But we have really enjoyed our stay coz it was the first time, in a long time, that all of us were off from work/school. And this place refreshingly provided us temporary respite from the city life.

not photoshopped. edited in Paint.


But yeah I still want to see some beautiful & interesting places  and feast at it with my own eyes. I want to go to that place they call “between heaven & earth.” I want to go to Arctic to witness the play of lights or the Aurora Borealis. I want to go to Egypt and experience the contrasting view of the pyramid on my right, and the sight of the city on my left. I want to hike for days and reach the top of Machu Pichu & pretend to be transported in a different time.

But more than these, what I really want is to travel to different countries to feast on food, to talk to the locals, to sleep on their beds, to dance their national dance, to partake in their festivities, to chant their chants, to sing one of their native songs, to play their national game, to learn a prayer.

Sigh. I wish to live longer in this earth to be able to do all these.

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Anyway, I have come across this image…

This is Skybridge Langkawi in Malaysia. Imagine having this… in Tagaytay.


I heaved a sigh coz we have this really huge (hectares & hectares!) land in Tagaytay. Story goes that my lolo’s lolo, a politician, used to own most of Tagaytay. But you know how before, parang wala lang, politicians would give away land titles to people, out of, I dunno, charity, or to get more votes. The vastness of the land areas they own is so huge that giving away parts of it was just like giving out barya (loose change)… Until there was only a small portion (still huge!) of land that was left to him & his family. The land is located in the innermost secluded part of Tagaytay, and at the end of it is a majestic view of the Taal volcano. Yes, kind of like in that photo above. There had been a lot of corporations or rich investors trying to buy it, but for some reason, it won’t push through. Different reasons, but mostly I hear was that they think that some areas were too matarik (steep), it would be hard to develop it. Well, I say, why don’t they do something like that (photo above)?? Ugh. Or maybe build a real nice resort/hotel at the edge of that property, where the land touches the river, and then build a cable car from there to the main road so that they can make their guests arrive in the hotel through that cable car… right??

Sigh. I heaved a sigh again coz last I heard, the government took it away coz my relatives could not pay the tax.

So if you are a rich developer reading this, please, maybe you could develop the land and make it as beautiful, if not better, than that one in the photo? And make me & my family honorary guests in your hotel so we could have own our paradise?


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…is travel time! 🙂

There are a lot of beautiful places in the Philippines that are waiting to be explored. When I become a billionaire and I settle back home, I would really aim to travel to some of its resorts/islands like Amanpulo, Siargao, Cebu, Palawan, Samar, etc. I would not leave this earth without stepping on those shores. 😉 I would also want to go trek mountains & go spelunking again in Sagada, Benguet & then Apo. Oh boy. Just thinking about it gives me some kinda cheap high, ha-ha!

Jhong & I love to travel. That’s one of the things that makes us happy. I believe traveling is also one way for people to bond & get closer, and also to discover things about themselves. It’s also a way to celebrate life & to appreciate the beauty of nature God has given us… But being in a group & having responsibilities like we have, we could barely afford to have the time. Last Christmas, Jhong surprised me with a travel voucher from Discovery Country Suites Tagaytay! (Isn’t he the sweetest??) But we were only able to use it after 6 weeks haha!

photo from the site

Tala doing the "leg up" 🙂

The place is good for b&b. If you are a foodie, you’d definitely love the courses offered at their Verbena restaurant. We ordered a very sumptuous Pan-Fried Creme Dory fillet for dinner. It was masarap that we almost cleaned the plate ! I also loved how they have cheese & wine tasting in the afternoon, and warm milk & cookies before bedtime. 🙂

the real master of cheese.

cheese & wine tasting

while we were watching TV, she was doodling

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Weeks before we were to move here in the U.S., my wanderlust struck. I wanted us three (me, Jhong, Tala) to go to Taiwan for my birthday, attend Culture Shock, and maybe do some shopping. But Jhong suggested that maybe we should go someplace else like Bellarocca. I’ve seen photos of it before & I remembered having drooled at the sight of a Santorini-inspired island… & so I conceded. This time, it was my turn to make all the arrangements. I was not able to purchase a voucher from dealgrocer, but I was able to get a promo rate. (Incidentally, after I posted some photos on facebook, a friend sent me a message & told me she knows the owner! Pooof, sayang another discount pa sana haha!) Anyway, so in the midst of my chaotic pre-departure activities, I was able to still my mind momentarily when I saw it in flesh… err earth. 🙂

photos from the internet

i always do this in every hotel that i go to. 🙂

breathtaking view of Mount Malindig & Sibuyan Sea. imagine waking up to this.

Tala & me at a villa infinity pool

Tala & her daddy. my 2 pieces of heaven on earth.


"Look daddy!"

wind surfing! i was surprised that i got it on my 2nd try... i almost reached the open sea!

her favorite spot

the staff are sooo nice! they became Tala's instant playmates.

dinner at the patio on our last night.

Since a lot of you are asking about these resorts, go to these links for bookings/reservations:
Discovery Country Suites Tagaytay
Bellarocca Island Resort & Spa

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Highlighted: “Last Thursday, I mourned over the death of a huge part of me… I am still inconsolable.”

I still am. 😦

I remember that day. It was the Roots prelims for House & Bboy. I was on my way to Eastwood to register and join the battle for House. The night before, I have watched a video performance of Rockstars (Ken & Laurence’s new group). It was their first after they left Allstars.

It was that day, while driving on the way to Eastwood, that it hit me. Allstars. Is. Divided. Into. Three. (Allstars. Groovejackz. Rockstars.)

Don’t get me wrong, Allstars is still very much alive, with the remaining 7 original members (Me, Lema, Sheena, Chelo, Big Pat, Maya & Kyxz), and some equally fierce & talented bunch of Juniors… But that day, the reality of it hit me like a tornado on a serene lake. It broke me. Murdered me. The reality of it hung in the air, as I was driving, like a huge dark cloud which soon engulfed me in this immense sadness. Inconsolable I was as I cried copious tears over the “death” of a group of 12 people who have been part of the best 5 years of my life… Grabe, I was like a crazy… insane driver wailing like a child stripped off her balloon, or a week’s worth of allowance! I guess I cried 2 years worth of loss (from 2008, when 2 of the core members Jhong & Reagan left, together with Madelle, Prince & Niko).

Its effect still lingers around me, follows me, like vultures circling the air I breathe. Admittedly, it will take me a long time to get over it. But I’ll get there. 🙂

I previously wrote about us being UNBREAKABLE. I guess I have put the group too high on a pedestal… coz I have known each one of us to be few of the strongest people ever. And I quote Chanoweezy “Walang ibang may kaya ng ginagawa nyo.” Alas, even Samson has his Delilah, and Superman his Kryptonite. We were all like leaders of war allied together, each having a different way of fighting adversaries, and tactics on how to be victorious.

Ultimately, each one has become a wounded warrior. If asked, everyone will have his/her own bittersweet story to tell.

But still, within ourselves, we are still Unbreakable. There has never been any greater training (both in dance & in life) than being in this group. Never will those glorious years be replicated, not even close.

And never will any of us feel any more victorious than when the time comes and we would have had shed any trace of bitterness, and we’d be smiling & would be thankful for that one fateful day in 2005. 🙂

Kasi dalawa lang yan… and I quote Conrado de Quiros, “You can do only one of the two things with the past. You can make it a fiercely loyal lover or you can make it a scorned and bitter one. There is no in-between. It admits of nothing else.”

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